Since appearing on Love Island, I came out publicly in 2019 and I’ve grown in leaps and bounds (Picture: Getty Images)
On a night out with a female friend of mine, a man came up to us and said we looked cute.
So I turned to her and semi-jokingly asked if she wanted to have a threesome with him.
She had a boyfriend so didn’t want to, but that was the first time I had opened up to someone about my desire for both men and women – even if I ended up playing off my idea as just a drunken suggestion.
Since then, I’ve been on Love Island and publicly come out as bisexual. I try not to pigeon hole myself and often call myself pansexual interchangeably, but there’s one thing I’m absolutely sure of – bisexual people need to be more visible.
It’s why I’m out and proud.
The first bisexual representation I saw on screen wasn’t until I was in my teens when I watched the film Cruel Intentions. When I saw Kathryn (Sarah Michelle Gellar) teach Cecile (Selma Blair) how to kiss, my first thought was how hot it was, how soft and perfect it looked.
Even then, I obviously knew that I liked it but I didn’t think I was gay or bisexual, I just pushed it to the back of my brain.
At that point, I was still fancying men. That’s the thing with being a bisexual woman – it’s not like you don’t feel any attraction to men as well. I used to wonder: Does everybody feel this way? Am I just being greedy?
By the end of my teenage years, I heard about the film Blue Is The Warmest Colour and the fact that there was a same-sex relationship in it. So I absolutely had to watch it. Sure enough, there was a pretty long sex scene – that I rewound and watched back several times – and that’s when I realised I had to explore this side of myself.
A few years after leaving school, I started working as a stripper and that’s when I started fully exploring my sexuality (Picture: Playful Promises/Wolf and Whistle)
Around the same time, I had a female friend in college that I had such a crush on. She had a boyfriend and I just remember asking myself if I wanted to be her or if I wanted to be with her.
I also felt weirdly protective about her, critiquing how her boyfriend was treating her, and when she’d say she was hanging out with him over me, I felt jealous.
A few years after leaving school, I started working as a stripper and that’s when I started fully exploring my sexuality. I was surrounded by beautiful women and one in particular, who took me under her wing.
She’d meet up with me before work and help teach me stuff on the pole. Then we’d do dances together where we’d both be completely naked and …read more
Source:: Metro – Entertainment